for the days, weeks and months i kinda cease to write or to post anything new, is the time i spent living, living to the fullest of those things that i’ve written about life and love in general…

i went on and on in putting a standard or norm on how things should work out in one’s life, i never knew i was putting it on in mine, damn! it was hard following the path of my norms, it’s no wonder im a judgmental joe and a selfish one, a lil bit of both maybe…

i should know better…that no matter how i describe life in my own PERFECT ideals, it doesn’t follow REALISTICALLY how it should be done…reality can sometimes affect how your ideals should be put into action. here i am again, creating a standard that’s kinda hard to follow…and yet im striving…maybe because life is never really FULL without trials and struggles…

i now know what really is the truest form of WRITING…it is through LIVING those that was written and should be written soon… i became, not just a spectator of life and love per se, i was and still am the very proof of how it is to live…

lucky me, i got someone by me, who’ll be standing with me, no matter what…i may have  a series of child-like-tantrums that could just burst out any time of the day, i may have short-tempered and very delicate temperamental devilish behavior and many other not-so-good-qualities…but even when i have them, i still remain the silly-old-me, who’d keep on living life with so much happiness in it, because i choose to, and because she chooses to…

here’s what i truly think…my struggles and my trials are no different from the rest of the humanity…but my true and real value is far different from the rest…the true and real difference comes from that someone who’ll be with me and chooses to be wth me, even when an angel and a demon, lurks within me…she’s the one feeding me the good side of life, thus making me good OVERALL…the sad thing is, i could never get away from my demons…even when i want to…

good or bad, sad or happy, childish or mature…angry or calm…whoever i truly am…i got cathy and i got her for life…that for me is a standard that only she can top…hoping she’ll never run out of reasons to be with me and to love me, like i am to her…